religion I grew up and you know if you weren't perfect and
you sinned then there was some type of punishment to where I felt shamed I felt
guilt and so I'm a whole life for 30 plus years was surrounded by guilt and
shame because here I was trying to be perfect on the outside for everybody for
my parents my church leaders my coaches my my spouse at the time when in
reality I knew that I was a fraud I had weaknesses and I wasn't perfect and but
I couldn't deal with that from a very young age
I would hide it because I'm like you know what it's better just to pretend and fake it rather than you know the disappointment and having that punishment in my life and so from a very young age I developed that habit of you know what it's not worth confessing or talking about it because then you know everybody knows and the guilt and the shame just consumed me and eventually broke me to where I just lived a life of Lies and it was inauthentic and eventually broke me as a man and that was the that was the start of me starting to transform and change my perspective of how I viewed myself once they learned how to love myself and realizing that shame has so much more power over you when you don't talk about it none of the things that bring you shame and so for me having that courage to talk about things that were embarrassing you know growing up or that brought me shame I realized that it's not as scary as I
I would hide it because I'm like you know what it's better just to pretend and fake it rather than you know the disappointment and having that punishment in my life and so from a very young age I developed that habit of you know what it's not worth confessing or talking about it because then you know everybody knows and the guilt and the shame just consumed me and eventually broke me to where I just lived a life of Lies and it was inauthentic and eventually broke me as a man and that was the that was the start of me starting to transform and change my perspective of how I viewed myself once they learned how to love myself and realizing that shame has so much more power over you when you don't talk about it none of the things that bring you shame and so for me having that courage to talk about things that were embarrassing you know growing up or that brought me shame I realized that it's not as scary as I
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